death, mistress I will never court thee but yet I am subject to your whim left to fend off your crop I will not give in – willingly or say your name with reverence death, mistress
(2)
on the randomness of moths and their addiction to flame just because I can not discern a pattern does not mean their commotions are not plain
notes… two unrelated works, written on the same day on different sides of my brain, the first one I consider a circular poem, the second just a thought, maybe just brush strokes really, but that’s fine, a little nug of truth beats a mountain of nothingness any day… or at least that is the story I am sticking to… thanks for the view (yes, you).
music?Humanmeshdance – Moth…. from a really limited EP, I forget how many copies were made at the time, but this… is the digital age so…. ambient goodness…. oh so good…
oh for one solemn wish I pine for the days of pangea one continent one land no language in the absence of man no war to conquer no death to divide one continent one land
notes… just something that came to me, all of the earth, well, that above the oceans was once just one land mass, so it seems division is natural… but yet unity was the original model… juxtaposition I say ! as we were all in the womb we all meet the grave, so keep that as a keepsake in your mind’s pocket, and like a locket look upon the wisdom as a reminder when you can… that perfect picture, a perfect unified land…
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“tell me, tell me of the moon a paramour who never moves closer always always remains at a distance remains always at arm’s length”
notes… I was listening to this (Cellar Darling – Rebels) and these words popped into my head as they often do, I suppose I was playing with words, and repetition on purpose as we all tend to do the same things so often, myself included, breaking the mold I guess is a habit, one I do not have quite down, quite yet, but I endeavor the goal, I endeavor it so, so I depart in that direction even when sometimes lost…
a birthday candle made upon one selfish wish a moment with her
notes… and so the pining does muster on, I’d like to pretend I don’t think about things, and how I might make them different, and all the other fantasies in my mind, but I will always remain hopeful, as the random tide of the world brought us together once, maybe there is sequel in there somewhere (and not a rewrite with bad actors), I am a cork in the river in that way, letting the universe work things out, I am not sure if that is the right approach, when it comes to such things I am not sure about much… at all…
underrated… much like me… my humor is subtle, you have to trust me on that front, these guys almost made it, like a lot of bands, they had the goods but just didn’t “hit” enough for the label to push them at the time, they are still around (the guys, not the band) in various forms… or so I am told…
“ginger gold“ for such as the ocean hath reached the land and scorched with tide by god’s own hand for fierce camille stormed in from the coast and brought forthwith the entire gulf through these valleys that became the sea countless washed past these winesap trees, but amidst this rip in nelson county tract from this ripe new wound so would emerge a fruit pure golden and brightly new so forever we are reminded true of dear old clyde and his wife this plot of earth, the loss of life for from the mud and roots up torn that golden apple took up form, to you, I raise my ginger gold to you rise! from that dire stance this fruit of hope, so behold – so began, the ginger gold.
notes… so this has a lot of footnotes, or links as they are these days, in short I am fascinated by hurricanes and dorian is no exception (I called it floyd 2.0 days ago), I took a look back at the 1969 hurricane season which is a historical one, it produced camille which devastated the gulf coast with a 27 foot (confirmed, probably higher) storm surge, this is a mirror for what happened in the bahamas, so one of the things the storm (camille) produced, outside of the devastation, was the discovery of a new (since popular) varietal of apples, survivors of the massive flooding that killed over 150 people discovered it in the wake of all that tragedy. The rest, well, that should be obvious I hope, and all power to the muse as I wrote this all today in almost one stroke…
“the drive“ birds crossing cross against the misty mountain fog a flag draped over an overpass yes, the fourth is certainly approaching all the vague forms in the distance seem like hypnotic suggestions to my subconscious or active lucid imagination outlines, fragments, geometry for me to fill in “looks like rain” I think as thought becomes motion the drops, large by standards thud ka-thud thud on my windshield intermittent wipers, pause they will do for now the miles all seem the twins only the signs tell me the state I’m in numbers… 156, 152, 145 plotted on a graph, asphalt, cracks mile markers like minutes on by patches to cover the ravages of age and seasons the constant beating, the humming of rubber drones on roads, spinning, humming at various rates of speed some under, some over I pass the state police with no appointment met today I look for license plates from other states to plot a trip, or remember one taken destinations local geography the occasional one from west of the mississippi holds my attention, interest for that fleeting second on my drive home.
notes… something I wrote back @ the end of June, totally forgot about it, one of those I wrote that I liked immediately, in fact this has no alterations from my original scribbling, usually I squabble over a word here or there, maybe some punctuation for meter or something, but nah, this is exactly as I wrote it
Music ? sort of a guilty 90’s pleasure but they were really a great band (for a flash in time)
and I would be remiss, a fool, or a dope if not to thank you for your looks, likes, hates, spit filled takes, it’s all good (I just waved to you in a gracious manner, I swear)
“a prayer for a young child may your innocence remain intact let not that shell be pierced or broken still until your wisdom has gathered age so that you shall emerge matured and able to take flight”
notes.. I say this, or post this, as a hope, which I know does not always happen, but no harm in asking, I am not a non realist, but I am an optimist, and always will be…
“a prayer for belief so I might find the strength I already possess may you guide me to that inner sanctum that mountain pass to my own tibet to find that temple already built from your hands, so I might feel refuge in that reservoir and walk out on to the other side cleansed, and reborn enlightened and in my palms carrying purpose, let that spark rise into burning fire with endless light, as I lay me down to sleep let this belief guide my dreams in to this, closing night so all these days, will open to me”
notes… I am considering adding my ‘prayer’ poems to my collections page, (I have updated it this week) I suppose I will, especially since I just floated the idea, and I love organizing things as if I have power over them, well, I do, at least in my little corner,
(1) death is for us forever at last this is the color of my endearment the light of perpetual machinery for within let all that remains let this purify my thoughts my enduring my love of you for you
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(2) I vacillate in this occupied space between wanting to never and begging forever if I had not known I would still be alone if I had not been I could not know tip toe on the edge of this black hole this close to light one step slight to all’s end this is the line on which I lay
notes… I have endless poems about her, the one, maybe the only one, I tell myself many things, I indulge in many things, I have fantasies, and dreams, and yet time just keeps passing, but I feel no difference, at times there is reprieve but always the return to the baseline… of her. I feel broken with no way to heal, I don’t want pity, or even sympathy, this is all for me, to work out, I imagine some people are the same, or at least I rationalize…