Should be a bumper sticker on my car… I have a hard time believing how fast the weather has turned here, fall is in full flush, there are pockets of old humidity still trying to live it up like 20 year olds, but for sure the cooler breeze, the hint of winter is surely taking charge, and this too will be fleeting, soon we will have all that snow and sleeting (yech), all the things that make driving to work such a … ahem.. “pleasure”… but gladly I have a USB drive in the car and lots of tunes to tune out the world (hopefully). There is definite mental preparation/effort to stay grounded and happy when it takes a hour and a half to go 26 miles every morning, which makes me understand religious symbols that people wear (reminders in form)… I used to scoff at such things (I was one of those snarky atheists that thought religious people were too stupid for the room, how could they believe in the little man in the sky ruling over their lives?) I have since become more understanding, I certainly do not believe in the traditional form of god but also realize that I am just some average (ok, above average, wink) guy from the great state of New Jersey.. so what the hell do I know? God could be Jesus, God could be a cow in Wisconsin named Phil or God could be a piece of our DNA… who’s to say or judge ? I don’t have the answers so I can not put myself above anyone just because I do not see what they believe. Not sure why I swerved into that tangent, I tend to go where my mind goes, the muse steers and I try to hold on for this… dear life… with that said… here is some simpler ideas I wrote, like I have said before, they ain’t all masterpieces… more pieces of time, or captures of a thought… and that s how my art works, I try to be immediate and visceral – do I fail? yep. but hopefully something connects with you, the reader, and I thank you if you read any of this, it is a privilege to have a platform to share my little sense of identity for others to gawk at.
“love, unspoken” 4/29/18
my greatest sin, was to not speak the words
that spoke with, all I ever did
or so I thought.
forgive me, for I was wrong
forgive. this curse upon my soul
agony – the inescapable black hole gravity of
my love, for you
5/14/18
all that I see, will it cease to be
when I cease
to be
why god, this planet
this planet among all the cosmos
what most will I miss
the kiss of the one I love
a song
a face
the warmth of the sun
I wonder
6.2.18
I write this
in tribute to you
for what you gifted
to which I ruined
my eternal love
my eternal flame -dims
as we travel through the same
my eternal loss
lost.
but I remain, without, you
“ingredient” 6.27.2018
I am the spice, into
the recipe of life
mixed with yours
the culinary delight
of your soul.
music? how could I go this long without pushing the hartnoll brothers !
this album was… so transcendent… they were pioneers who do not get nearly the credit they should, electronic, drum n bass beats, amazing vocals (when they brought people in like this one)… if this song doesn’t make you groove, well… get out of my house because it will be hard to be on the same plain and explain to you how awesome this is…
(an earlier more techno oriented track but still awesome awesome awesome!)
Shades of My Garden 