thoughts… from the deck….

thoughts… from the deck….

sometimes does rise great winds, they do not always bring a storm, a story perhaps, but just the language of the breeze without an erstwhile traveling companion such as downpour, sometimes fifty degrees is just warm enough, for whatever reason, after a season all couped up this is welcome addition to the night, the advantage of this time of year is quite clear, the insects have not yet come, so I can remain unmolested, even close my eyes, listen to the wind bending the wooden chimes that climb up skyward into this moonless night, I used to think, perhaps, there was a language to the trees, and the winds, and the ground, but that is such a human construct, I think, now, these days, maybe there is just more of an understanding, a balance, an equation so primitive to escape our clever machinations or possibility of expression, sometimes in darkness like this, I feel fear, whether real or realized, rational or not, but not tonight, just calm, the same calm that falls upon me upon the shore with the tide rolling in from the great atlantic, for I have never been to the other side, the pacific, but I do not say that with regret at this moment, maybe ask me tomorrow and my answer might be different, there is a slight chill in the air, but it does not penetrate, like when you open your freezer, there is almost a blanket there, of air, you can feel it park gently on your upper lip, you can even breathe it in, but the sensation is that of a fresh scent, not over powering, just enough to savor, looking at the trees, and the night, I wonder which came first, the eyes, or the ears, I suppose I could look such things up, perhaps the answer is even known, but to wonder about the first time something saw something or heard something or tasted this world, and how many mouths have taken in air that has circulated around the world for billions of years, this wind, maybe once part of a tornado, or just a late summer breeze cooling beads of sweat, or the flapping of a butterfly’s wings they say…

(for any newbs… I try to get out in my yard, or my porch and let the world come to me in words… this is one of those posts… been doing it for years, I recommend you do the same, surprise yourself…)

and the light beam strikes…

and the light beam strikes…

Staring out the window at work, a beam of the late afternoon sun took an angle, an angle directly to catch my eye and corral my attention, in that moment I heard an inner voice:

“for even fading light –
is light”

for the simple truths
can soothe, instantly
a smile, a satisfied sigh
all the dance of life
projected upon my eyes
of all the ills of this world
right now, I can think of none.

the darkness filter

the darkness filter

if only we could install a simple filter, a physical barrier in a metaphysical way, like the ones in our homes or cars or, anywhere, to filter out the contagions meant to harm us, and those that are mere particles of dust, harmless to some, allergens to others, some meant not to harm at all but do by their very nature of interaction, could I impose this filter, not a dam to hold the everything back, a picky filter meant to pluck out the darkness that might infect, decay, inject or harm, remove the vile poisonous barbs, thoughts and words, not as shield to knock them down unheard, just a medium to purify before they penetrate our host, can this be accomplished with the power of thought, a mental state, a gate, a keeper, letting only in the passage of the best repute, or just those meant to heal, rise or bolster or guide, or come upon a grave sailor with a single coin in hand, only allowing passage to our personal island of heaven, or at least the best heaven we can provide, inside, our inner-eden, even if there is maintenance to do about this garden, let this be such a garden, a collection, one of the seven wonders internally nurtured by allowing just the warming light of the sun, and the cool light of late summer moon, with fireflies providing a spectacle amongst the midnight blooms, yes, let me close my eyes and pray this miraculous wonder into place, not a wall or a moat to tighten and surround in, a sieve of the finest kind, to let only in what love of vine, and that which ripens fruit glad and sweet, why not strive for this, a filter, the darkness filter.

SOC post… that is stream of consciousness ya ninny… meaning I had an idea in my noggin and let it bounce around, create a sound… and so hear it is… a good visualization for me, I think I have to try and change my filters in my head from time to time, a reset really, spring cleaning of the soul ? sure.

observations on the crooked tree (that overlooks the cemetery road)

observations on the crooked tree (that overlooks the cemetery road)

up the tree
bent the curve
oh reverent mother
oh cruel earth-
“so what say you old man?”
(with hagard walk)
“alas,
youth can not be taught yet
to understand.”

notes… must be the time of year, inspiration, life abounds, driving on the parkway never had it so good, I wrote this in a blitz (5 minutes maybe?) pulled over at the clark rest area GSP south (a jersey thing), what is up with taking so long to replace the two rest areas on the GSP ? sheesh… I love my state, truly, but man alive the state can’t build a sand castle before the tide…

green bloom

green bloom

almost as if immediately- (today)
I notice the green jump
flowing in on the edges
filling in the seams
I dream of the emerald isle
although I’ve never been,
the fringe of the landscape
taking shape now
rising up now,
the early signs did portend
and now the underlying
is undeniable-
the spring;
and the poor death-
of a cherry blossom’s plight
“you arrived too soon, my friend”
the party has just yet begun
and yet, there you are
scattered about the ground
falling like painted cards of rain
petals spent on trumpet sound-
yes, thank you, my friend
for sending out the invites
and setting the hall
for all the guests.
(thank you my friend,
I will see you next year, with renewed hope, again)

notes… this literally walked up on me… well, first off, for those not in the know, these are one offs, I write and am done, not a hard rule, but mostly my modus operandi, I want to capture my exact mood, not brood, so these pieces are really instant coffee (if you will), anyway, driving home tonight, I noticed how the banal aspects of my drive were … well, alive, like the little islands in between the highway divides, more green, so spring is here, I can not say it crept up but yet here I was… noticing the infringing green… and yet the decay of the harbingers… the daffodils are beginning to fade, the cherry blossoms are balding… so.. this is what this is about, I think… I might have woven some other things in there for you to think about…

robins-

robins-

robins-
surveyors, purveyors
those of flight
choose more readily the land
skirmish or a dance?
forwards and backwards glance
might they even taunt me
as I park my car
next to their claimed lawn
only to back away
if my shadow sways
to block out their sun
an unatural eclipse
that might unerve even us
should the shoes be reversed

“where have you been?”
red robin, all winter long
abandoned these parts
for a warmer lot
and perhaps
that makes you smarter than I
but yet you return
to hatch your brood
so perhaps my youth
was not such a waste
growing up in the same place
you choose to bring your own
and to return each year
to this ancestral home

maybe I will fully never understand the dance
the why, the how, the circumstances of this
but enjoy a flash of blush
upon my yard
graced by my friends and visitors
who have come so far
to come bring the spring once again
as the green is proselytizing the land
and the songs more ride the winds
-for a time
so why not enjoy the ride
and smile at this wonderous spectacle of time.

note… I almost want to have one as a pet to observe and learn, the wild ones on my lawn do not always understand my intent, nor should they I suppose, but I suppose to try… (and for those who do not read me often …. or ever, my works are almost all one offs, off the cuff, I wrote this today in one sitting, maybe ten minutes, that is just what I and the muse do…)

more about spring…

more about spring…

the newborn-
white cherry blossoms
line the path
under the watch
of the day moon
face half flooded
within the sky blue
like a faded island
in the vast ocean

notes… this is about cadence and haiku, or not haiku, but when I am in the mood this has the feel, the deal, and so what…love it or leave it… I am cool with that, and thanks for all eyes and spies who read this…

social media…

social media…

the mob is fickle
crazed with feral banality
anxious fangs to bare
ferocious reaction
the ire rips at flesh,
all in a maelstrom
whipped up by a construct,
in opposition
to unspoken truths.

the mob is fickle
to bend the knee
or break the jaw
or bow to current gales
to be swept along.

the mob is fickle
acts of one mind
to lay to utter ruin
the appointed enemy;
yet one only needs to see
the ruins of old world
to know the outcome
of this one
of this scene, before you.

notes… the age of free discourse seems to be near an end in this country or world, unless it is fought for, mob rule is easy, even if the mob may be right in some fashion the gallantry of western civilization is the mob at least, at the very least tolerating all voices of dissent, for at times, many, most or none, the mob may be wrong, and it takes fortitude and pillars to stand up for that truth… the strongest show their might by holding up the weak instead of the easy job of swatting flies with a hammer. Your thoughts and comments are always appreciate, your eyes, thank you for those as well, those who have read this, we are on this trip together for now… so, the universe chose us to interact… that is a fact… I don’t usually ask, but share the F out of this one… I think it deserves it… because I want people to bow to the mob, I want free voices, dissonant voices, I am a free speech absolutist… free speech, never less speech, offensive speech – all of it… sunlight is the best light…

and yet more signs of spring…

and yet more signs of spring…

the daffodil-
impatient bulb
for you are
indeed to spring
I wonder if
you have ever seen
a summer day

notes… for those who have been around a while (thank you) I sometimes do what I call “haiku” style, this is one of those, it is not the pure form, I sometimes like to do the form thing but often I like to do the ‘feel’ thing, this feels like haiku to me.. in spirit at least…

simply, spring…

simply, spring…

the mockingbird calls
in this carnegie hall
of sorts;
on a branch
above my lawn
the cover songs
plus, the original cuts;
waiting for the sign
the clock of the mother,
the earth aligned
we are slaves to hail the equinox
what the mock hails, I know not what,
but that bird knows the timing
far better than I
from instruments free of humanity
or clutter, the line of life is all
instincts, beyond measurement
for a bird, this simple thing
like breath
the hand hits the time
and the show begins.

(this is spring now, regardless of date, ask my friends, in the trees)

so I can share with you the genesis of this poem… I came home, as I mostly do, every day, just the other day, I stepped out of my car and heard “it”… the sound of spring, the animals clue me in, the birds mostly, they start to sing regardless of the official date of spring, so I heard that the other day, and then coming home on Saturday I was given a command performance by one little bird, sure, not for me, he or she was doing their thing regardless, but I was there, as the little bird, with no introduction, walked out on a branch and began to sing, well, not really sing, but imitate the songs of other birds in order, as mockingbirds do…it was quite amazing, I would like to think it was a performance for me, sure, why not… maybe, why not… but either way it was amazing, to see this little thing dominate the scene…. so that is what I am trying to recapture here, did I succeed ? I hope so, but if not I will try again… because… that is spring.. after all.