(1)
so many years (pause)
and i still think of you
I should have been more selfish then-
realized then, not now
hindsight is a lens
a curse, a gift, fire to burn it all down to the soul
god- I miss you
nothing- since has been you
nothing- close (and I apologize to those)
so I wonder
how it has been for you
when I feel like the murderer standing over the body,
the right decision has always felt wrong
so I wonder then
what has become
our future now that is has become none;
but let you know
never a day passes
that you are not
in my thoughts, and those thoughts are love.

(2)
to you (my love):
for our paths to cross once more
once again
as meant to be
like the first go round
hopefully
beyond this world
in another
some where other
where the house we live in
is our own, no one else
no outside world to know
only each other
in each other’s arms, as one
as in those moments
we had-
that is heaven, my love
for I will wait for you there.