the scrawny one

the scrawny one

as of late I have been observing a skulk of juvenile foxes near my house, sitting out, putting some goodies (berries and nuts) out on this big hunk of rock that sits on my lawn (removed when the foundation of the house had to be built), there were three of them, at once they all seemed identical but as the days (or nights) have worn on they have certainly grown at different rates, and now it seems, after abundant encounters observing them, I am down to one, when night after night I could make a simple call they would come out of the woodwork to check out my offerings, a short span, maybe just a few odd weeks, but time is such a devil, such a tease, things like these seem like they will stretch out forever, but never do, so now, last night, after many a night of not seeing any of my local crew, just one appeared after I waited a bit, from a direction I was not expecting, the last remnant I suppose, the most tiny and scrawny of the bunch, a cautious gate, as if walking not to break tissue paper, each paw light as a feather following the other, foxes have a subtle dance like they are ashamed but of course that is just my human projection on many years of evolution, but just the same, I can only report what my eyes record, the scrawny one grabs up a blackberry and I can hear the merry chomping along, perhaps it has only been a few days long since I saw one, or the three, but pause always feels like an eternity compared to these moments of realized reality, a simple lesson really, about patience, and perspective, and the nature of things, and well, the nature of nature, so I wonder how long this might last, this new resident and this old one, well I suppose then I can only wait until the next setting sun, and see if my friend once more comes, and if so, be grateful for that.

the mind and form

the mind and form

the mind is the overlord
even in darkened places
comfort bears witness
to come to the immediate minute
to approach the impending hour
to reach the next day
seemingly a cocoon of protection
as eyes subscribe slowly dim
(and even to pale darkness)
grim hopes then baked
into the crumbs of sustenance
and such-
the opposite of an opulent feast
full taught belly wages-
so this too is reality.

bit none the outside does tame
the lash and laments
that! time marches forth
with no repent – of the mind that bends
reality, for wall the lens
and all the show, the circus hence-
but yes, like bricks in a barrel
can tip a barrow
so too is the shadow
a break, a crack
just like that, an infection
may creep in
or more insidious – a cancer
to burrow and fester
for the later-

for as a single entity
and to protect the identity and form
survival of the fittest
in our animal sense
may be the invitation of death
so I might request
the best defense from ourselves
is the eyes and observation of our pack.

a litany of the fox

a litany of the fox

a new cause on the wind, an ecosystem bends and changes, the housing all seems the same, the seasonal tides remain if slightly altered here and there, a long winter, a short one, some determined by the shadows of furry little ones, an indian summer, a harvest moon, a tempest, a teapot, a near monsoon, but this year a few new visitors have met, or emerged, never seeing more than one around these parts, now there is a skulk, the official word for a pack of foxes, albeit juveniles riling up the lines of dusk and dawn, little darts and clowns, bursting with curiosity and the retreat of supreme carefulness, but nothing might seem to trump the urge of both hunger and said curiosity, which may have killed a cat or two, but these three are not that, cats, that is, even if their manner at time might suggest so, but not surely dogs either with their easy come and go, so I lure them to a certain spot, out there on my sitting rock, so I can observe and perhaps indulge in their youthful exuberance and perhaps steal a bit for my own, waiting for time seems like hours when only ten odd minutes pass, makes me jealous of the Attenborough’s of the world, and appreciative of the chance, for when that moment comes, you want to jump and cheer out of your chair, but you must maintain your steely resolve, take a breath, and take the moment in, for as long as the minutes waiting seem, the waiting happenings flash, but take heart, those seemingly wasted moments fill up like a reservoir to be had and shared, seeing the cycle of life, like a movie spent bare, upon a rock, in my yard, laid out with apple slices to the delight of a few kits, in spring, the warm air, all is magic now, with glowing eyes in the light of my camera, everything new, everything grand, not one winter between them just a run of the land they claim their own amongst us going about our important lives.

the cauldron

the cauldron

among all this
a cauldron for we are in
thrown about the business
the veil of our lives
fueled by our eyes-
which can only see but a short distance,
only to a horizon perhaps-
even with enhanced lenses
spun out on the pinwheel we ride
all life,
all life we know is tucked in here
we wish to see a reflection somewhere
a mere blip on the radar
even if one-
a glimpse
a loch ness monster of the cosmos even
for our vast oceans
we barely know, ourselves
the strange depths do not compare
to that ever stretching cold-
spiked with stars and suns
blazing blisters as have spun
and died
to become the domain of nothing
of the reverse, a hole so black
as to swallow sight
the same sight we are so sure
shows us the world in true
but so little
so very little in truth,
when we can not even skip a jack
over to our near neighbor, dear andromeda
and perhaps find some poker partners
to freshen up our game, the river
and the odds?

notes: this is back to basics for me… unedited, as is, sure, some of my usual ideas, but I am who I am and I think about what I think about… but this is totally off the top of my head as I wrote it which is sort of the point of what I do… not perfection… just my brain working the way whatever deity intended…
oasis

oasis

if you see something beautiful, take the moment to stop and take it in… and a picture so you can go back there in your mind and share with those you are for… life is racing by, don’t just stop and smell the roses, listen to the birds, the songs of frogs, the symphony of water… (Baker’s Pond, Franklin Lakes, NJ)

birth-right?

birth-right?

I was always of the brand
that I was born of the castle (grand)
so unto her I felt the draw
not knowing the truth at all
but true my birth was but a flaw
a child floated down the nile same
abandoned willingly- this time,
left to bathe upon that river of chance
to be plucked up by whomever might
have fished out for a child that day-
of course I do not recall
the voyage, the arrival, anything but lore
but lore does not feed nor clothe, no
nor does a babe grow and understand the chore, so
here I am to reconcile my high born, aspirations
imaginations-
delusions-
illusions-
bedtime comfort wrapped comforts, so
how easily from a rampart look down
a tower’s stone, over the dawn
when all the while, with eye bent
just a hill or optical illusory meant
for I am no more than a pull
a push, an oxen rent-
to pull radishes with hands
soil to render under nails the black
no famed purple cloak can hide this fact
and there is no real difference then
between high tapestries and dirt linens spent.

observation from traffic…

observation from traffic…

I wish to be
a concrete weed
not for the cracks I create
but for the resiliency.

notes… (listen to the tune while reading)… so I as sitting, in horrendous traffic, nothing new, not here at least, not my daily commute, this was that times two, so I could pop in an album or two … or three, while I watched morons trying to weave the impossible weave to somehow beat bumper to bumper traffic… no, for all the weaving, and speeding stops, you are next to me again, and again, and again… as I just sit in my lane with patience.. and admittedly tunes.. otherwise I might be you, I see the non point of not going nuts, road rage is a concept I have touched, but not so much anymore, I think I have a good handle on things, I don’t like it… sitting in traffic that is, who does? but the answer is not to fight the horizon, the answer is to defuse your bomb, so that is what I do, when abused by the insane lack of planning and coordination of government, for the money that is collected, surely it could have been better spent… but apparently not, every inch of asphalt costs more here… but the populace accepts it… so what can I do as just the one guy, I can try on a micro level in my life, but that is then, this is now… crawling along the route… I see weeds… maybe that is a slur, I see plants, making it… however and wherever they can be… and what the hell do I have to complain about? these damn things will grow in the smallest crack, that inch of life, that fight… and so I wrote this (above)….