so I have been, this past week, and the week before that week. Sure, I wonder, what if I did not have to work… would I ? Could I ? do this… indulgence, not in a bad way. Did I milk every mile and every smile this week? no… but I feel different after being here, and there, than I am at home. In fact I am much healthier and happier to know, I have to bet my life is a psychosomatic mess, at best, I am breathing easy now, a balcony door open to the ocean, literally, the hum of the pool system is there, to be sure, but so is the ocean, probably a good football field away, I can see the spray, so I am lucky, to be here, to pay the fare, to have busted my ass all year, to stay here for a few days, and god has graced those days with painted rays, and days… full of sun, and possibility, each day, I did much better than times in the past, at getting out there and trying to make it last… not 100% you can say, that is true, but I am just a man, but yet… it is true I could have made that number, not for you, for me, well, also for you to push yourself off the couch, to do, and get out in your purview, I don’t say this as a prophet or to inspire… it is just the fact that we should aspire to… give it our all.